Posted by BusyMaineMom
Do you remember when we were all children at play? We would be ensconced in a world created by our overflowing imaginations. This world would be filled with great fun, much laughter, and the pure joy of creation. Perhaps we were knights and damsels in distress or cops and robbers, but it was always a game purported through our innate need to fully enjoy life. And as we played, something unpredictable and uninvited would happen, perhaps it was a misfire, a trip or a fall. Invariably someone would shout, “Do-over!” and, just like that, our world would be reset to just before the misstep occurred. Our play would continue as if nothing had ever happened to change our initial plans.
Wouldn’t it be fantastic if our lives as adults also had that Do-over Clause? Just imagine the best time in your life, a time when you were fully at peace and felt like everything within your world was just as it should be. You were at the top of your game, having the time of your life! Then you made a wrong decision, an error, something that changed your life in an unfavorable way. Oh how simple it would be if we could revert back to our childhood games and just simply shout out, “Do-over!” and our life’s plan would reset back to that place where everything felt so right in our world. Now I know that sometimes we are able to get second chances in life, but they are never quite as simple as when we were children at play.
As I ponder my own life, there is one certain timeframe within my life that I felt like everything was just as it should be. I owned my own successful business and only needed to work part-time. My daughters were young and it was summer here in Maine. I was able to spend so many hours with them, picnicking, swimming, and at play. Carefree hours were spent laughing and snuggling without the threat of stress or responsibility. Our time was our own and we were right where we wanted to be, with each other. I didn’t have to feel the weight of responsibility bearing down upon my shoulders or the stress wearing me thin. I was with my girls and only they mattered. It was the best time in my life! I felt like I was fully present.
Then the economy declined. Work and, subsequently, income weren’t as plentiful and instead of trimming down our lives to live more simply, it was decided that I should get a full-time job. One that would bring in a steady income and allow us to maintain our way of life. I bent to the pressure and traded in my business for a full-time job. The sad part is that I now find myself working triple the hours and for less pay than I was making out on my own. I answer to a supervisor and there are no more last minute trips to the beach, or days taken off to simply be with my girls. I can’t ever go back to owning my previous business as I have become an employee of the company that used to contract with me and it would never be allowed.
Looking back on the last four years of my life, there are times when I wish with every fiber of my being that I could transport back to that perfect time when my life was my own and I could spend so much more time with my girls. I would give anything to yell, “Do-over!” and have my life reset…just like that.